Monday, May 7, 2012

Recent commentary on my other book

Found here.


Translated to English for the benefit of international readers:


George said...

ΟΚ...80% of this album give off the sense that nothing of what we go through each day has any particular meaning to it. I say to you a resounding 'come on!'. 'Nihilism' I think, is the word. You did you provide any solution to your readers... In my opinion if you stood 100% behind what you created, you'd be dead by now (possibly by commiting suicide). What makes you keep on going IN SPITE of the troublesome worries inherent in life, that you neglected to let us know in the 50 pages of your book. (And do not think that the epilogue of the book saves you any face by playing the part of the artist that shows you the TRUTH that you unenlightened beings cannot see. That role in my opinion is the most passive. In any case, what you show in your comics, I see in life as well and I try to combat it. If I didn't do this, I'd die. You just made me feel like shit... where is the good in that in any degree, huh? I mean no offence, I also make comics.



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My answer and resulting dialogue below.



I replied...


I did not get into making comics to give you answers about anything. It's self evident that I still exist. In your own comics I urge you to try to give answers to life's questions and see how that reverberates inside you. I do not care much for didacticism. If you approach ZX as a manual on how to live life, it ends up more like a manual to a death, yes. But as I said, I am still here, so that probably was not the intention (of the book). My hypocricy is probably not the only explanation to this.

In any case, if you felt like shit, that's probably better for me to you not having felt anything after reading. You're still there as well, after all. Aren't you?



George said...
Oh yes, I am alive!! But I'd be interested to find out your goals are when you draw your comics. Perhaps for you it is beneficial to get some things off of your chest... but what about us, your readers? I do not think you're asking enough of us. I just have seen a lot of artistic works which people would characterize as dark and pessimistic or even depressing and they still have some light to them that shines through the darkness. Your is just... I mean, it's just the path that leads many to suicide. That is, my comment stands for 80% of it, because there were parts I enjoyed, like the story with the grandfather. In my opinion we live in a world where the difficult task is to find a reason to keep on existing, we need to search for it and we need to fight for it. And that's what I think humanity has reflexively done for all these years. We're a spoiled generation and I think we have taken it for granted that everything's going to be perfect. If my grandmother, who lost her father at age six, her father at age eleven, her three brothers at war, if she let despair take hold of her she would have never married. I would have never been born. Almost twenty people would not exist today, and she would not have experienced a full life herself thereafter. Flora longs for sunlight, not for darkness. It is the darkness that is readily found everywhere, just everywhere. But light is scarce. Perhaps it's just me. Perhaps for other people it would be more beneficial to get slapped around a little bit to wake up from their rosy existence. But 99% of people do not live a rosy existence... and many of them are living in situations which we cannot imagine in our worst nightmares.


I understand what you're wondering about. What is the purpose of 'dark' art. The only obligation for art is to provide access. Every comic I've drawn so far has provided access to something, melancholy, small hope, something funny, an alienating moment, something illogical, something beautiful (I hope). These are my noteworthy offerings. I make these comics with a personal stake, it is not an easy process.

I do not see what is so suicidal about 'Ektos Thematos', I have to say. Initially when I read your comment I thought you were talking about my second and newest album 'ZX'. Perhaps you should avoid that one if 'Ektos Thematos' seemed too heavy for you. Then again, perhaps not.

What can I say? I enjoy heavy art. I like to be moved, I like the access. It makes me feel alive and hopeful and energetic. I realize that it may not be the same for you, but I do not think you'll die from it.

I do not like the idea that I'm putting my burdens on my readers. No burden is 'removed' from me. It's still on me. And my readers should claim ownership for their own melancholy. I provide access. If you were so saddened by 'Ektos Thematos' and you do not enjoy melancholy, why didn't you stop reading half-way?

As to light and flora, I would rather avoid the literary reply. My aim with 'Ektos Thematos' was to provide access to noteworthy emotions. Access doesn't hurt anybody. Nobody killed themselves for reading a poem. They killed themselves for X reason and there was a poem that underlined it, perhaps.

Where you say that "and many of them are living in situations which we cannot imagine in our worst nightmares." That's not enough. I need access. Make a comic, show me what you found noteworthy, show me my worst nightmares if you can. Take that risk.

Otherwise 'the suffering of the Other' is an academic point, and an underhanded rhetoric device at that.

George said...
Ok.. Sorry for all of this but the invitation of feedback (found in the intro to your book) was just too enticing. A final question, perhaps a bit cliche... which are your biggest influences? I know, probably too numerous to note, but if you could list 5-6 artists or works that moved you, which would they be? They don't have to be comic-related.
P.S.1 The parts about wars and gardening, I realize they sounded somewhat childish and faux-romantic, but I do think they are necessary for most of us and basically everybody uses these concepts whether they aknowledge it or not.
P.S.2 Excuse me but now I have to find a different comic artist to yell at, teehee. It has been interesting.. thank you.


My influences as a comic artist are expansive. If you're interested, check out Barry W. Smith from the US, Andrea Pazienza from Europe and Yukito Kishiro from Japan. In a more general sense, I have been moved by a great deal of Heavy Metal music like My Dying Bride, Fates Warning or Lordian Guard.

I appreciate the contact.


George said...
Truly, I am sorry to keep this up but now that the Greek neo-nazi party "Golden Dawn" has come out of the electorial process with a 7% of the vote, don't you think it's time to use your artistic capability for a little bit of didacticism (even though I know you abhor it)? It would do a lot of good for us.


No, I do not desire to teach anyone anything, political or otherwise, through my comics. If you do desire it, I urge you to do it in your own work, George.



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I thought the dialogue was important, in understanding not just "Ektos Thematos" (for anyone else that has had trouble with it, I presume) but also "ZX". Art should be honest, and I do not believe anyone that wants to teach other people ethics, politics or any other 'way to live' is honest. I think the awe towards existence and that one hasn't come to any concrete answers about what life means is a honest thing to convey in art, if it has been felt. It builds a much stronger bridge with other people as a shared experience than any political message to push down their throats. ZX is a dark comic (much darker than "Ektos Thematos" whose darkness had been mitigated by attempts at humour to initially sell the premise to the publisher) and it's a much better comic for it. "Ektos Thematos" is bookended by periods of depression. ZX is a dark story that starts dark and ends less dark, because it is bookended by awe towards the unfathomable illogic in the center of sapience. It is a significant, if not the most significant thing I've wished to express. "Thanatos" is there. "Eros" must follow. I cannot and do not wish to 'teach' that awe (also called 'hope'). I wanted to express it. My life has become much better for expressing it. There is no message, there is only sentiment.

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Friday, April 6, 2012

ZX wins an award.

At this year's Comicdom Con, ZX was nominated for 'Best Fanzine'. You can see a video of the whole ceremony below. I'm the awkward person taking the award at around 8-9 minutes in and saying not very much to the microphone ("thank you very much" for you foreign barbarians). A few more thoughts after the video/jump.




The category was "Best Fanzine". In Greece, the term 'fanzine' is misused. What the term really means is a small (but not necessarily) print run publication, usually periodical (as in, there are more than one issues and they come out incrementally) whose subject is an examination of culture; Say, if I were a big fan of a football club (like AEK, or Olympiacos) and I put out 'Olympiacos Monthly' on a shoestring budget, that could classify as a fan-zine. Usually fanzines are about underground music, though. Most often punk and indie, and that's where we got the term from, as in Greece there is a tradition for the usual xerox'ed anarchopunk fanzine as there is all around the world.

Comics were gradually introduced in fanzine pages, and slowly comics-only fanzines started coming out. Again, it is valid to call something a fanzine if it's comics-only, but the comics in it deal with an item of culture. If let's say I were to put out a small run comic full of my own Superman stories, that's indeed a fanzine.

But ZX is not a fanzine in this respect. It is a privately funded small print comic book. I am not complaining or anything, in fact I am very grateful for the recognition. Just saying, for the future, the Greek scene should stop calling small press comics fanzines. Many 'proper' comics are small press as well. If the distinction is an economic one, then 'small press' is the proper term. If the distinction is a cultural one (subject matter and point of view related) then though I understand using 'fanzine' for historical reasons, there should be steps taken to use clearer terminology in the future. Self-published is a useful term.

There will be other, pertinent news in the next few weeks. This blog might be coming out of its hiatus soon.

All the best to you, readers. If there's any of you left.

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Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Helm is -evidently- taking some time off


Nothing after the jump.

Return here when it's time.

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Saturday, September 3, 2011

Belated mixed bag

Life marches on. Here's a selection of recent illustration work, some personal scribbles and a small update of the goings on in Helmland.



(as usual, click twice for larger images)








I enjoyed some of these more than others, but I'm trying to keep my technique on a certain level regardless of the style of illustration. I'm getting faster, but I also get the feeling I should be going slower... more on this at some further point where my feelings have solidified some.

Turns out I wasn't done with Scribbler!










Some of these are lonely life-drawing studies, obviously. Others are from dream & imagination, as is more usual to me.

So I've settled in my new apartment and it's had a profound positive psychological effect on me. My distance from blogging as of late should not be interpreted as indicative of dire goings on, far the opposite, it seems I blog the most (and in the bitterest tone in Poetry of Subculture, I should add) the worse I'm feeling. Ultimately, my release from the blogosphere shall be the tolling of a new bell, yes. This blog is on the ebb because I'm not making a comic right now. The other blog is at high tide because I'm listening to Heavy Metal as much as I ever have, yet the silver key that is missing is entirely outside the artistic realm.

I've also done a very mediocre cover of Lordian Guard's 'Sinners in the Hands of an Angry God'. If you like this music (as well you should) and wondered how the lead voice is played, or perhaps you are a guitarist with time and ambition, you could do worse than watch this.



What else... I'm planning a short vacation to a greek island to meet up with friends I've sorely missed for the last couple of years, this is exciting. I won't be off for long, a mere four days, but it'll be revitalizing for sure.

I've been socializing a lot lately, trying to work myself into some sort of balance. This has been achieved, but I suspect it's a false balance for the weighs are uneven. I am currently single (though looking... in some fashion, I guess) and I've always done well to maintain pride and optimism when single (though my optimism manifests in dire declarations of darkest romance, such is the case with many self-important artists!) the real test is when there's common wellbeing at stake. We shall see. Studious introspection and therapeutic discourse seem to have some effect, at least. Aside from healing, self-awareness and a meta-narrative with explanational power, yes.

Today has been a very creative day. I shall try to fill the weekend either with breathing, talking faces, or with more artistry, let's not let it go to waste.

-Helm

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Friday, July 8, 2011

Move almost done, also, a few decent illustrations


Based on this illustration by Tabary. I never was the biggest fan of Iznogoud but it's one of these cases where after Goscinny stopped on it and Tabary kept going, the comic turned for the better (unlike Lucky Luke and Asterix). The more paranoiac-depressive Iznogoud gets, the best it is.http://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gif

More after the jump.




This one's actually one of the few I'm kind of pleased with, on the technical end. Again, it would stand to get another render/detail pass if I wanted it to look more convincing, but for what it is, I'm glad to have developed the skill and speed to do this sort of work.

In other news, I bought a bed and a desk and I'm moving out of here and in the new apartment, hopefully until Thursday max. I'm really looking forward to it, as we (roommate and I) have created quite a nice living space there and this is the sort of change that's good for me. I'll post a few pictures after we're done settling in.

-Helm

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Monday, June 20, 2011

Scribbled ends, more work, thoughts



As usual, click for intended sizes.



The color work is getting faster and more streamlined. I'm working under very tight deadlines. Eventually I'll become fast enough that I will be able to experiment more with formalist aspects even within those strict timeframes. I am enjoying my work more, at least. Some pieces are more painterly, others are more comic arty in their method, a good balance to keep me interested and the results relatively fresh. Now on to the last (? see below) batch of Scribbles.

Self portrait. This is probably my pick from the lot and my second favorite self-portrait on the whole. There's a slight psychoanalytical comment in this on how I use complexity as obfuscation, and therefore, as a shield. It's a reminder to untangle myself. That such a potent (for me) piece occurred through scribbling means the experiment was generally successful.


This is about details. Where the neck meets the jaw.

This is just cyberpunk faux-machinery stress relief inking. The last one I've made and the one that made me feel as if I'm done with Scribbler for now.

This isn't very good, but included for the soft approach. The program's not too suited for this.

This one was fun to do. It says "Thresholds" at the top. It's a re-imagining of a Heavy Metal album cover by the band Nocturnus, done from memory. I checked later to see how close it was. Not at all. This is also one of the rare pieces that I did where I started from a black base, hence the kind of chalky highlights and so on. Neat.

This is Roger Dean-esque stress relief. Enjoyable for me and a continuation from Scribbler_12b.png. Perhaps the ink hatching was a bit too harsh for the intended effect.

This is joyfully (or perhaps, morosely) subtitled "I am on the internet!". This little bird character has this wonderful landscape vantage from his treehouse and yet he browses.

The finality of the above theme. Trapped.

Scribbler helped in a very direct way with getting me back into drawing for pleasure. After ZX I've grown accustomed and perhaps dependent on 'perfect inking'. Great DPI, greater zoom strength, curve correction and other such OCD processes that make my inking perhaps a bit sterile. Once I got the critique "Helm, now that you ink digitally your stuff is worse" to which I replied "this is how I always wanted to ink so uh, bad luck for us both I guess". My aspiration for 'perfect lines' will never be satiated.

However this is akin to writing a book and never going on page two until the syntax and grammar (not to say the notions and thoughts) are absolutely as perfect as they can be. This is how I made ZX (more or less, nothing perfect there, but surely a struggle towards this direction) and I believe someone can write such a book if it a very important book to write, for their psychological well being.

However for faster, simpler, stress-relief work, this obsession with perfection is counter-intuitive. Scribbler helped in that it has no zoom and its mechanic for rendering is just a tad unpredictable. There has been a reconciliation with roughness in ink through it. I wonder if it'll impact my high-purpose work as well. I don't really know if I'm done with Scribbler completely, but I know that I'm done with using it every day for a while, at least. It's been therapeutic, but there's further steps to take now. I'm in the middle of moving out, life is happening!

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Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Scribble me that



The scribbling never ends.






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